Here I am after a good 4 months or so. Well, life has been kind of busy these past few months. Where do I begin? I spent 3 months sweating it out, eating right and being extremely strict with myself. The result - I am 12 kgs lesser today! I never thought it would be possible. Every moment while I worked out on cross trainers, treadmills and steppers, I swore I would never allow this weight to come back to me! The change has transformed me not just physically but mentally too. It has given me great confidence and the compliments are continuing to pour in - making me blush with glee every now and then.
The other big news is that I have joined work. Let me tell you that working in a news channel is not all about glamour. The office is splendid and walking in to NNI on my first day was an experience I would never forget. The swanky red and grey interiors, the three floors of office, the studios that till now were only seen by me on TV - it was all too surreal. And then of course there was Ashutosh - the Managing Editor of NNI - every budding journalist's role model. Supremely intelligent, always a newshound and very very handsome! When he interviewed me for 40 minutes for this job, my only thought was "even if he doesn't take me now, I still got to spend 40 minutes with him!" Every girl at NNI gushes and goes weak in the knees when he so much as smiles at her...so you can imagine my state when he said "Welcome to NNI Naina" and shook my hand..I could have swooned in pleasure! The news anchors are not just pretty faces that you see on television, they are also journalists who have to always keep themselves abreast of all that's happening in the world. As for me, I am a desk writer on the channel's output desk. My work involves writing news scripts, making 2 minute news stories out of material that bureau reporters send, designing graphics for these stories and basically telling the story in crisp language with relevant visuals. Much of the stuff that I have to do, I have already learnt at journalism school - including video editing so life at work is not that challenging just yet. I hope one day I can be a reporter and go on field - but as Ashutosh says - every fresher must begin at the desk because the desk is the engine of the channel.
Coming to love life now...well, it's more complicated than ever. Aryan and I are very much in touch now that we are in the same city. We go out often for dinners, movies, plays, coffees. Off and on, we hold hands, hug tighter than friends should and kiss each other on the cheeks. There was that one night about 10 days ago when he was dropping me off home after a movie and we hugged and he gave me a quick peck on the lips. My heart was ready to pop out and the butterflies in my tummy were fluttering hard. A million questions were ready to flood my mind but that moment was special and I just wanted to savour it. Strangely, we never spoke about it. We just pretended nothing happened. That's another thing that bugs me. I need clarity of thought and action. This confusion is killing me. He is still with Kanika and I don't want to cause another break up in his life. But what do I do when the love of my life kisses me? And why is he kissing me? Why doesn't he go kiss Kanika? Funnily enough, he is not physical with her at all...not even to the extent of holding hands. So if he's not attracted to her why is he dating her? But I don't want to ask him all this. It's his life. He can take his decisions. I don't want to lose our friendship because of my feelings.
More on things later. I have some things to finish now before I meet Aryan for a coffee...let's see what twists get added today!
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